Make Good Choices

i spied him through the drive-thru window… dark-rimmed glasses sat heavy on the bridge of his nose, bleached tips at the ends of his short, dark, spiked hair and big holes in his earlobes, filled with black plugs. he was maybe all of twenty years old. maybe.

he smiled as he took my cash, and handed over my iced coffee. we exchanged pleasantries, and as i began to pull away, he rested his hand on his countertop, made direct eye contact with me and said,

make good choices today!

his words sat with me all day. it’s what we always told our children when they were little, make good choices. it gave them power over their day. my husband especially, would say, you ARE going to have a day. this day is happening. you can [pout/be angry/be sad/be sick/etc], or you can make it a good day, but this day is still going to happen. make good choices.

and i wondered as i made my way through my day, sipping my iced coffee, how i forgot that, the most simplest of instructions, the most basic building block of a good day. focus on the little choices. understand that there ARE choices-that i am never trapped. as an adult, i know that there might not be a great choice, but one choice will always be better than the other and there is always, always a choice, even if the choice is simply my disposition in the face of chaos.

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*all photos taken at the salt flats in salt lake city, utah

Southern Gal - August 24, 2015 - 10:27 am

Yes, this: “as an adult, i know that there might not be a great choice, but one choice will always be better than the other and there is always, always a choice, even if the choice is simply my disposition in the face of chaos.” As an adult, I have the ability and responsibility to make good choices each and every day. Thanks for sharing this, Patty!

(We always tell our children to make good choices. And we add, “All choices have consequences. Good or bad, choices have consequences so think them through clearly and carefully.” Am I telling myself that? Hmm.)

Julia - August 25, 2015 - 9:45 pm

I was just thinking about you today. So I pulled up finding serendipity. And here you are :-) Gorgeous photography. Good choice of pictures :-) and words!
So true- thank you for sharing- Good to see you on here again.

lisa - August 26, 2015 - 7:51 pm

Oh my, the only thing more beautiful than your photos are the wise words that accompany them. I wonder how many people were told the same thing but dismissed his advice based on his appearance or age. Wisdom comes in many forms….and from many sources. Yes, we all need to think about the choices we make. For ourselves and the little eyes that watch us.

Hello August

hello, august.

you’ve been dangling in front of me, the golden carrot that urges me on, for months…

once the building is finished
once we move out
once we move in
once we’re up and running
once the boys are home (or once they go back to school)
once she’s driving
once the fourth of july is past
and the refrigerator is fixed

you know… in august.

in august, the sun shines bright and warm

the flowers are mature, and grow rich in color and weave tendrils deep into stakes and stone

in august, the grass is green, as green as i can remember, and smells of childhood, happy and limitless

the water is warm and sky, well, the sky – the august sky – she is so lovely

it’s always the New Year to me, august     and i think long and deep about resolve and resolution     opportunity excites me again and refreshes the tiredness that comes from day-to-day monotony

and i dream big

*all photos taken with my very full so very slow iphone 5s  
and edited in camera+ ap

Southern Gal - August 14, 2015 - 11:12 am

Hello, you! August holds much promise and some disappointment as I look back at all I had planned for the summer. I didn’t get nearly any of those things done, but I do have a 13yo who prayed last night thanking the Lord for a good summer. That changed my perspective a little. ;) I pray you find that place in the Lord where all you can see, feel, taste and hear is Him.

Gorgeous phone photos!!

Julia - August 25, 2015 - 9:42 pm

Patty- these pictures are just stunning! Beautiful! Do you ever sell any of your images? For peole to use for cards or to frame? How could I go about doing that?
Thanks so much- Julia

March On, #StrongGirl, March On

Alice::  How long is forever?
White Rabbit::  Sometimes, just one second.
― Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland

*

i stretched and yawned and tried to figure out where i was. and how i got here. it was my bed in my room in my house, and yet, it was so unfamiliar. it seemed… clear. correct. as it should be. it had been so long since i could see it this way that it seemed new and crisp, like someplace i was seeing for the first time.

my bedroom. my bed. the things that are most intimate to me and still, unfamiliar. is this what they mean when they say the fog has lifted, clear your eyes, see rightly?

i love believing we create our own reality. it gives me power to make my life beautiful. but every now and then  i see things as they really are… crisp and clear. reality smacks hard. steals my sunrise. then seeps back into the crevaces from which she emerged. and i don’t know that i’m brave enough to face it. owning the truth requires strength,  crazy strength, to endure what breaks us, to believe in the worth of picking up pieces, to march on.

forever is gone in a second, and suddenly we know.

but we march on, anyways. we always do.

what else is there?

 

Southern Gal - May 21, 2015 - 10:50 am

I pray your journey is full of God’s blessings, especially when you can’t see them clearly. And when you can, I hope the boundlessness of His love keeps you in awe. Hugs.

Julia - June 12, 2015 - 2:10 am

I loved this so much-
Thanks for sharing. I think your photography is gorgeous!

Liz - July 18, 2015 - 4:19 pm

I can totally relate to this… In fact, I had been missing your posts and linking up with 1440, that I came to see if you were back posting.
I have had my own huge crash to reality over the last 5 years and I have been feeling so incredibly lost of late, and hoping that I would wake up and discover it was all a dream… But alas, this is now my life and I need to adjust and accept that this is my new “normal”. I hope and pray that you are blessed beyond measure.

Southern Gal - August 3, 2015 - 11:30 am

Missing the view from your camera, Patty.

april.may.june.july.august.september.october.november.

did you happen to see the movie Twilight? the part where bella falls into a deep depression after edward leaves her? the camera pans around her and in what i think was brilliant filmography, demonstrates the passage of time through her bedroom window. as the camera spins, we see her walls and then her windows, and then her walls and then her windows again… each time the camera passes the windows, the names of the months appear and the scenery changes… the leaves change color, then fall from their branches, then it snows… and so on.

i look back on this past year and my memories are like the scenes in bella’s windows. april, may, june… prom, graduation, summer… glimpses of a life, as i reach my toes to the ground to stop the room from spinning.

A  P  R  I  L

 

M  A  Y

 

 

J  U  N  E

J  U  L  Y

A  U  G  U  S  T

S  E  P  T  E  M  B  E  R

O  C  T  O  B  E  R

N  O  V  E  M  B  E  R

D  E  C  E  M  B  E  R

J  A  N  U  A  R  Y

F  E  B  R  U  A  R  Y

M  A  R  C  H

 

APRIL || austin’s senior prom; final soccer game

MAY || a special trojan train, a life too soon taken, and #communitylove; austin’s high school graduation

JUNE || paddle boarding with asia; confidence workshop with girls from the boys and girls club; early summer morning in my neighborhood and a stuggle with light and dark

JULY || cleaning and prepping the pool; roasting marshmallows in the rain {it seemed to rain a lot last summer}; a neighborhood creature, my morning friend

AUGUST || both boys left for college, leaving an unfillable, overwhelming space in my heart house;

SEPTEMBER || click away photography conference, salt lake city, utah :: temple square, silver lake, a delightful click-away model & the salt flats

OCTOBER || my beautiful daughter and an autumn sunrise

NOVEMBER || my son teaching my father chess over thanksgiving; an autumn sunset

DECEMBER || christmastime

JANUARY || i turned 50. my husband sent my best friend and me to a special place to celebrate

FEBRUAY || fashion week nyc & a sweet sixteen; my son boxing

MARCH || snowbird utah

 

 

i hope to be sharing these stories in the weeks to come… to put down the memories here before they become soft and indistinguishable with time.

{and then maybe we could consider ourselves caught up, hm?}

 

 

meanwhile, you can see what’s been going on at my photography blog ::

and at pearls for girls, now referred to as GeGe’s ::

nic - March 25, 2015 - 8:44 am

Your photograghs are stunning. ♥nic

Stephanie - March 25, 2015 - 10:19 am

Nice to see you again! As usual, gorgeous shots.

Southern Gal - March 25, 2015 - 11:46 am

There you are. ;)

So, so happy to see your beautiful photos and words again, Patty.

Happy 50th Birthday…late. Sounds like an amazing time your husband planned for you.

I’m so sorry for the loss in your community.

Hugs.

Jarek - April 24, 2015 - 5:12 am

Stunning photos. Congrats

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Liz - July 18, 2015 - 4:03 pm

Such a fabulous collection of images!! You have a true gift!

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The Breaking of Rose Colored

goodness.

is it march already?

i opened my email one day last week and found a short message from my blog friend renee, at it was brought on by love. it was there shining like a gemstone and nestled among those from lawyers and accountants and business people. she doesn’t know this {yet}, but this little note brought me to tears… and was the gentle push i needed to find my way back here. thank you, renee, for reaching out. i am immeasurably grateful for this small act of kindness.

it’s hard to find the words to tell you where i’ve been the last three-quarters of a year. actually, i’ve been right here… but completely immersed in another world. my regular life is about the same… both boys are away at college and my daughter just turned 16. my husband is still busy as ever at work, and i’m still taking pictures… though i did pause for a few months there.

i am an artist. of this, i am sure. it’s hard for me to force creativeness… art is what happens when i am inspired by real life. and it’s hard to feel inspired when such a big part of your life is wrong. and so the pictures stop. the words are lost. the art is non-existant. the real life is hard and messy, even for the blessed.

i try to find reasons for the things that happen, for the things that people do, and the things that people say. or don’t say.
as if this might help me accept it.

sometimes, the reasons are hard to find. impossible even. understanding is elusive.

 

but i  find solace, always,  in the faith that things happen for a reason… that i am where i am supposed to be… and that we grow through life experiences, even when those experiences are ugly. lessons need to be learned. personalities grow. and while i would say i see things differently now, i don’t see them completely differently. only with a bit less rose-color. i refuse to let darkness steal my light.

 

this is a small part of my picture, one story.

it’s hard to see how these pieces will fit together. perspective is precious, and while we are in the middle of it, we cannot see how this story affects us. it seems all-encompassing, but it is not. it seems large and overwhelming, but it is not.

it is one piece. just one…

 … one part of a larger picture that we cannot yet see.

*

May today there be peace within.
May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be.
May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith.
May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that
has been given to you….
May you be content knowing you are a child of God….
Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love.
It is there for each and every one of us.

~Prayer of St Teresa

Jen - March 7, 2015 - 2:46 am

I was so excited when I saw this in my bloglovin feed this evening! I get busy and caught up in my life and all the things that I have going on that I sometimes forget how much I’m missing things. And I have definitely missed your posts!

As always, gorgeous photos. Thank you for sharing the journey.

Teresa Cline - March 9, 2015 - 5:01 pm

Welcome back! Missed your beautiful posts!

Dana - March 10, 2015 - 5:32 pm

So glad you’re back!!! Lovely post as well as pictures!

Julia - March 14, 2015 - 8:06 pm

So glad you are back!!! Beautiful- Thank you…

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